I offered my self diagnosis: (1) I have pinned my self esteem on my work for so long that now that my "career path" seems to be sending me through Chemistry (really bad) and Calculus (maybe won't be so bad?) my self worth is taking serious body blows. (2) While politicians have no sense of shame, or can ever point out any mistakes they have ever made, I have the opposite problem. I can tell you 3 things I screwed during my morning commute today.
Sue introduced me to cognitive behavioral therapy and Dr. David Burns 10 forms of twisted thinking. I definitely need work on "3. Mental filter", and "4. Discounting the positive". I'm going to keep a log of my crazy and see what I come up with. :)